Joe Eszterhas knew a lot about darkness. Growing up in refugee camps and then in America’s back alleys, he used this knowledge, first as a journalist, and then as a wildly successful screenwriter of sexually graphic and violent films like Basic Instinct, Jagged Edge, and Jade.

Then, on a hellishly hot day in 2001, desperately battling to survive throat cancer and his addictions to alcohol and cigarettes, Joe Eszterhas found God. Or God found him. And he came from darkness into light.

Crossbearer is the moving, and sometimes funny, story of a man who turned his back on the wild world he’d immersed himself in for far too long to embrace a new life full of faith, family and love. During his journey, Eszterhas discovers God in the most surprising places: a family game of baseball, a child’s photograph of a cloud, a dying mother’s dying roses. Through it all, he remains thoroughly himself—wearing a Rolling Stones T-shirt as he carried the cross down the church aisle—but becomes a better version of himself than he’d been before.