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Now I See You

Now I See You

A Memoir

Nicole C. Kear

St. Martin's Press

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At nineteen years old, Nicole C. Kear's biggest concern is choosing a major--until she walks into a doctor's office in midtown Manhattan and gets a life-changing diagnosis. She is going blind, courtesy of an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and has only a decade or so before Lights Out. Instead of making preparations as the doctor suggests, Kear decides to carpe diem and make the most of the vision she has left. She joins circus school, tears through boyfriends, travels the world, and through all these hi-jinks, she keeps her vision loss a secret.

When Kear becomes a mother, just a few years shy of her vision's expiration date, she amends her carpe diem strategy, giving up recklessness in order to relish every moment with her kids. Her secret, though, is harder to surrender - and as her vision deteriorates, harder to keep hidden. As her world grows blurred, one thing becomes clear: no matter how hard she fights, she won't win the battle against blindness. But if she comes clean with her secret, and comes to terms with the loss, she can still win her happy ending.

Told with humor and irreverence, Now I See You is an uplifting story about refusing to cower at life's curveballs, about the power of love to triumph over fear. But, at its core, it's a story about acceptance: facing the truths that just won't go away, and facing yourself, broken parts and all.

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This is some Park Avenue bullshit, I fumed, slamming shut my copy of 100 Years of Solitude. I'd been sitting in the well-appointed waiting room for almost an hour before the doctor called my name,...

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At nineteen years old, Nicole C. Kear's biggest concern is choosing a major--until she walks into a doctor's office in midtown Manhattan and gets a life-changing diagnosis. She is going blind, courtesy of an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and has only a decade or so before Lights Out. Instead of making preparations as the doctor suggests, Kear decides to carpe diem and make the most of the vision she has left. She joins circus school, tears through boyfriends, travels the world, and through all th

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Praise for Now I See You

“Hilariously inspiring... Kear's book is a showstopper.” —People

“A frightening diagnosis is only start of the story... Now I See You is a funny, sassy, yet poignant story.” —The New York Times

“We're here to tell you that Kear's memoir is one of 2014's best books and one that will have you alternating between laughing and crying from page to page.” —Parade

“A young mother going blind is no laughing matter, except, incredibly so, it is in Nicole C. Kear's courageous, relatable and, yes, truly funny Now I See You.” —Family Circle

“A brave and compelling memoir... Honest, funny, sad and uplifting.” —Marie Claire UK

“Her story is spunky and full of a zest for life that will open the eyes of readers to the little joys of the world. A tender memoir about love, life and going blind.” —Kirkus Reviews

“Hilarious and profoundly heartwarming. Now I See You will change the way you see the world.” —Kimberly McCreight, New York Times bestselling author of Reconstructing Amelia

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About the author

Nicole C. Kear

Nicole C. Kear is a parenting writer who contributes essays and articles to Parents, American Baby, Babble and Salon, among others. A native of New York, she received a BA from Yale, a MA from Columbia, and a red nose from the San Francisco School of Circus Arts. She lives in Brooklyn with her husband, three children and a morbidly obese goldfish.

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