CHAPTER 1
Venice, October 1966
She was on her way to the Rialto market, hoping to buy some vongole from one of the local fishmongers, despite the fact that it was October and therefore not really the season for them, when she felt someone grab her by the wrist.
Just moments earlier, Frances, or Frankie, as she was known to the small set of people she had called friends over the years, had been walking alongside the Grand Canal, concerned with nothing more than her aching feet crying out for a vaporetto. Pulling the cowl of her houndstooth wool overcoat tightly to her neck, in what she was forced to concede was a failing attempt to keep out the impending cold and drizzle, she had made her way determinedly toward the fish market—her heels clicking against the rain-splattered cobblestones, dodging the crowds of tourists winding their cameras with spools of film to capture the city’s infamous candelabras, and their accompanying tour guides, wooden paddles held high into the air—all the while cursing the friend who was supposed to have been walking alongside her in this miserable weather.
Instead, weeks before, Frankie had sat alone at Victoria station, about to board a train to Dover, a crumpled telegram somewhere at the bottom of her bag. It had been handed to her along with her ticket. RUNNING LATE STOP SORRY STOP FORGIVE ME. Frankie knew that the use of a question mark was impossible in a telegram, but still, it didn’t stop her feeling needled by the assumption of the last bit, turning the latter into a declaration instead of a plea. She was used to such flightiness on the part of her friend, and yet the slight had rankled more than usual. Venice had been Jack’s suggestion, after all—Frankie would never have come on her own.
When Frankie later called her friend from the telephone box at the station, Jack had begged her to cancel and wait until the following weekend, when they could set off together and be in the city of bridges in just a few hours rather than a few days. Frankie still didn’t understand the reason for the delay, had heard the edge in Jack’s voice when she had broached the question. It wasn’t as if Jack had to clock in. Heiresses were not subject to the same grueling schedule as the rest of the world. Jack was, had always been, at the mercy of no one but herself—a fact she often tried to exert upon others. But that day, Frankie had refused. She had only ever flown once before and had detested every second. There was something about it—the whining of the engines, the slamming of air, of oxygen, of force, of gravity. The toll she could feel it taking on her body. She wondered about her insides, whether they were as clenched, condensed, as twisted and distorted as they felt. She had been, for the duration of the trip, aware of nothing so much as the feeling of being trapped in that box of tin, thick with cigarette smoke and cloying perfume, with polite conversations and sharp, quick glances. It reminded her too much of the years during the war—confined in dusty basements, listening to the roar of planes overhead. She had sprinted from her seat the moment the plane touched the ground.
Not that the ferry and train over had proved to be much better. The ferry had been an arduous journey, the inside suffocating in warmth—filled to the brim with ladies playing bridge, unsupervised children running wild, their husbands and fathers retreating to dark corners with cigarettes and measures of scotch—while the dark and gloom of the weather outside made it impossible to step out for a breath of fresh air. Later, in Italy, Frankie had misread her connecting ticket, thinking she was leaving Torino from Porta Susa, the station where she had arrived from Paris. She realized only at the last minute that the train to Venice left from Porta Nuova, nearly a full mile away. After several panicked moments, she managed to come to her senses and hail a taxi, arriving, mercifully, just in time, although flushed and sweating as she collapsed into her assigned seat, blood pounding in her ears. Her spirits had been further dampened upon realizing her traveling companion was an elderly woman cloaked in a large and rather foul-smelling fur coat, with a miserable-looking dachshund, which was prone to fits of loud yapping every time the train lurched, perched on her lap.
When Frankie finally arrived at the station in Venice and managed to purchase the right ticket for the right water bus, she had experienced an inflated sense of triumph. Alighting at the San Zaccaria station, confident in her ability to steer herself through the city unaided, she had even gone so far as to decline the help of a smiling porter, determined to make her way through the sestiere of Castello all on her own. It was a decision she soon regretted, as her meticulously written directions led her down one street and then another, the width barely large enough for herself and her one leather bag, let alone the people trying to make their way from the opposite direction. And yet, somehow, there always seemed to be enough room, the person coming toward her shifting just enough to allow them both through without so much as brushing shoulders. These narrow passageways then emptied out into campi—the open spaces smaller than she had imagined—before leading her onward and over one little bridge, and then another, and sometimes under archways that forced her to bend forward so as not to knock her head against the stone. She had taken a few wrong turns but nothing that had led her too far out of her way. The most disconcerting moment had come when she met with a dead end, which, unlike those she was used to at home—bricks that boxed you in and held you in place—meant she found herself standing in front of an archway that led only to water, rushing up and over the stones, dangerously close to her feet. The first time it had happened, Frankie stumbled, thrown off by the movement of the waves, by the sulfuric odor that filled the alcove. It was hypnotic, the lapping of the green water up and over the cobbles, the smell of brine surrounding her, so that instead of taking a step back, she had moved forward, as if to welcome it. The spell was broken only when a local had appeared in one of the windows, calling out something to her in Venetian. Looking up, she had seen window boxes and lace curtains, an older man looking down at her in consternation as music flooded from a record player somewhere inside the flat. Frankie backed away, embarrassed. Head down, she had pushed onward, trying to make it look as though she knew where she was headed.
That had been weeks ago, and there was still no sign of Jack.
And so Frankie was alone, in a city that was still largely unknown to her, when she felt that hand clasp on to her wrist, fingers tightening in a way that made her body go slack with fear. This reaction irked her hugely, for she had never been one to be afraid, to be skittish, or any of those other detestable feminine attributes that were encouraged in the etiquette books of her childhood, but after everything that had happened as of late, the instinct to recoil was now almost second nature.
But then—she looked up, her eyes falling on the person standing there, and she could have laughed. It was only a girl. A young woman, Frankie supposed she should say, although lately anyone younger than her own two and forty years seemed infantile.
“Frances—is that you?”
Just then a wasp, no doubt attracted to the bundle of yellow plums Frankie had in her canvas sack, purchased from the floating greengrocers at Campo San Barnaba, dived between them and Frankie swatted it away, breaking the girl’s hold in the process.
“Yes,” Frankie replied. The word, she knew, sounded severe in its haste, more so than she had intended. She studied the girl, struck first by the long, wavy red hair that cascaded over her shoulders, reaching nearly to her waist. The girl’s outfit, she thought, looked like it had been carefully selected from a West End shop. A shapeless mustard-colored shift with a Peter Pan collar, the dress grazed midway at her thighs, and was covered by an oversized swing coat that ended just below. Frankie felt suddenly prim, older than her years, with her short blond wisps of hair pinned tightly back, bobby pins scraping against her scalp, her face bare except for some hastily applied eyeliner. She herself wore a simple black sweater and pair of cigarette pants. She pulled her overcoat tight against her. “It’s Frankie, actually. No one ever calls me Frances, except for elderly relatives and people who don’t really know me.” She frowned at the words, feeling the pull of the pins against her scalp.
The girl in front of her was a stranger, she was certain of it. And yet—
“I knew it was you,” the girl cried, pulling her close, into something that would have resembled a hug had Frankie’s body yielded to the movement. “Oh, God, it’s been ages, but I knew it was you.”
“Do we know each other?” Frankie asked, stepping back.
The girl’s hands flew to her face and she laughed. “Oh, goodness, you don’t remember.”
Frankie’s eyes narrowed. She met a good deal of people in her line of work, had met even more in the last year, after the publication of her most recent novel, despite its admittedly tepid reception, but the girl before her seemed too young to be involved with that crowd. Frankie had difficulty believing she could be a day over twenty. No, their paths would not have crossed in the world of publishing.
“You’re not Diane’s daughter?” Frankie inquired, the vision of a schoolgirl dragged in to meet her suddenly vivid in her mind. She had never been a fan of Diane’s, the wife of one of the editors at her publishing house—she couldn’t remember whose at this point. The woman was far too eager, too effusive for her liking.
The girl’s face brightened. “You do remember! Oh, I’m so pleased.”
“Yes,” Frankie replied, allowing a tight smile. In her memory the girl had been a blonde—but perhaps she was wrong. She wished that she had not mentioned Diane at all now, that she had let the girl make her own introduction, just so that she could be certain. “What are you doing in Venice?” she asked, not bothering to make the question sound anything less than pointed.
“Playing tourist,” the girl responded with a smile. “And you?”
She searched the girl for any signs of pretense—for surely she knew the real reason for Frankie’s presence in the city. The incident at the Savoy had been in all the papers at the time. Jack and her editor had tried to hide them from her, but she had seen a few, had even managed to glimpse a headline or two. FEMALE WRITER BECOMES HYSTERICAL. WOMAN NOVELIST LOSES THE PLOT. They hadn’t been particularly clever. But, then, she imagined there had been a rush to make it to the printing press first—it wasn’t every day an esteemed writer had a very public breakdown in the middle of a bar at a five-star hotel. If the girl in front of her was aware of any of this and lying for Frankie’s sake, or for her own, Frankie could detect nothing, no betrayal that she knew. She shrugged. “Something like that, I suppose.”
“And have you only just arrived?” she asked, to which Frankie responded yes, even though it was a lie. “It’s a pity you weren’t here earlier,” the girl continued, indicating the market around them. “You’ve only just missed the moeche.”
“Moeche?”
“Yes, it’s a delicacy, straight from the lagoons. The Venetians called them moeca.”
Frankie nodded, conscious that they were standing still among the crowd of the morning market, locals and tourists alike pulsating around them, although there was little chance of confusing the two. The locals appeared determined, ready to root out the best deals of the day, fortified by their morning espresso, while in the tourists she thought she could read something of disinterest in their slackened expressions, their eyes moving quickly over the architecture of the city and lingering instead on the little stalls full of postcards and trinkets. “They’re already out of season, then?” she asked, trying to be polite, wondering whether they would be swept up in the movement if they continued to remain static. Frankie loathed small talk.
The girl gave a laugh. “They don’t have much of a season. They’re here one day and gone the next. The moecante know when they’re ready to molt.”
“Molt?” Frankie asked, turning her attention back to the girl and thinking of birds and feathers and wondering how this all made sense for something that came from the canal.
“Yes, you see, they’re crabs, and when they shed their shells there is a moment, a few hours, when they’re soft enough to eat.” The girl grinned. “Only,” she continued, somewhat earnestly, “they have to be taken out of the water at once, so that the new shell doesn’t start to grow and harden.”
Frankie looked at the girl then—really looked at her—as she tried to decide whether she was horrified or amused by the expression of excitement on the girl’s face at the prospect of such violence. “That sounds terrible,” she offered, her voice suggesting she did not mean it.
“Yes, I suppose it does.” The girl nodded, still smiling as she spoke. “Are you in Venice on your own, Frances?”
At the abruptness of the question, Frankie’s eyes narrowed. Yes, Diane’s girl had been a blonde. “Why do you ask?”
The girl shrugged. “I was going to suggest that we might meet for a cup of coffee.” When Frankie didn’t respond, she added, “I’m here alone as well.”
“A cup of coffee?” Frankie repeated.
“Yes. Shall we meet tomorrow? Where are you staying?”
“In a palazzo near the Campo Santa Maria Formosa. I can’t remember the number,” she lied. “But I can’t make coffee tomorrow, I’m afraid.”
This was obviously not what the girl had expected to hear. “Oh,” she replied, somewhat more softly than before. “And the day after?” she asked, the words spoken with a slight hesitation this time.
“The same.” Frankie intended to leave it there, to walk away without being coerced into making plans with the strange girl. The idea of meeting people, of having to engage in conversation with strangers, was one that rarely appealed to her—but then, seeing the crestfallen look on the girl’s face and desperate to say anything that would extract her from the situation, from the crowds growing around them, Frankie felt compelled to add, “I might be able to rearrange a few things.”
The girl’s face broke out into a large grin.
“It’s Gilly, by the way,” she said, pronouncing her name with a hard G and extending her hand. “Just in case you’d forgotten.”
* * *
Frankie had been to the Continent only once before, as a young girl.
The memories she had from that time in France were brief and scattered. In her mind it was all dazzling lights thrown against cobbled streets, the smell of bakeries in the morning. She had been lucky enough to tour the country with a friend and her parents, a loop that had taken them from the capital in a large unwieldy circle through cities, port towns, and small villages. Throughout it all, however, her heart had remained steadfastly in the city of lights. For while she had loved the quaintness of Rouen, the magic of Mont Saint-Michel, and even the hot, sandy beaches of Nice, in the end there had been nothing that compared to Paris, to the smell of it, from the aroma of yeast in the morning to the powerful stench of the fromageries to the hot breath of the Métro that assaulted her every time she tripped down the stairs. There, she had felt the future stretching before her, wide and unmarked, hers for the taking.
Frankie had done little traveling in her adult life. At first, her lack of travel had been because she could not afford to do so, her parents’ deaths and her decision not to marry—despite one solid proposal and another, hastily rushed offer—but to instead attend university, putting her at a distinct financial disadvantage when compared with her peers. But then there had been a bit of success with the publication of her first novel in her late twenties, and some money as well, enough for a holiday abroad. By that time, however, her interest in traveling had diminished greatly, the feeling that she had once experienced growing harder to remember as the years passed, until it was only a vague memory. And while others around her prattled on about needing to go elsewhere in order to truly find oneself, Frankie could not help but think it was all a bit of rubbish. She knew herself already—too well, she often thought—and so she knew that the dark, rainy streets of London were for her, that the high street in Crouch End and the trip down to Euston on the 91 bus, followed by a brisk walk over to Bloomsbury to show her reader’s ticket at the British Museum’s Round Reading Room, were the only kind of excitement she wanted. Others could keep the sizzling beaches of Positano, and even the romantic dreariness of Paris—she didn’t envy them for it, not one bit. Hers was a small world and she was glad of it.
Perhaps not surprisingly, then, Frankie had hated Venice when she first arrived. It had been warmer than she anticipated, so that the palazzo had been stuffy and unpleasant—and yet it had been impossible to open the windows due to the abundance of mosquitos that seemed to lurk in both canal and courtyard. She had made the mistake only once, awakening to find herself covered in red bites that itched and swelled, growing into blisters that wept and refused to heal. The very worst were still present, a cluster on her forearm that she had begun applying a salve to, worried that they might never fade.
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