CHAPTER 1
Archie Sheridan slept with the light on. The pills on his bedside table were Ambien. A year before they would have been pain pills. Vicodin. Oxycodone. A cheerful skyline of amber plastic bottles. Even now the table looked empty without the clutter. Just the Ambien, a cell phone, a week-old glass of tap water, and a red gooseneck lamp from IKEA.
His kept his gun in the drawer. On the nights the kids weren't there, he slept with it loaded.
The Ambien prescription was untouched. Archie just liked to know it was there. Sleeping pills made Archie groggy, and groggy wasn't a luxury he could afford. If the phone rang, if someone died, he needed to go to work.
Besides, it wasn't getting to sleep that was the problem. It was staying asleep. He woke up every morning at three A.M., and was awake for an hour. That was how it had gone since the flood. Now he just figured it in. Went to bed an hour earlier. Compensated. He didn't mind it. As long as he controlled his thoughts, kept his mind from wandering to bad places, he was fine. Focus on the present. Avoid the dark.
The gooseneck lamp stayed on, its red metal shade getting hotter by the hour.
Three-ten A.M. Archie stared at the ceiling. The apartment was sweltering and his bedroom window was open. He could hear the distant grind of the construction equipment still working to clean up the flood damage downtown. They'd been at it in swing shifts for three months, and the city still looked gutted.
If it wasn't the noise from the construction, it was the trains he heard at night: the engines, the whistles, the wheels on the tracks. They traveled through Portland's produce district around the clock.
Archie didn't mind the noise. It reminded him that he wasn't the only one awake.
Everyone had a cure for insomnia. Take a warm bath. Exercise. Drink a glass of warm milk. Eat a snack before bedtime. Drink herbal tea. Avoid caffeine. Listen to music. Get a massage.
Nothing worked.
His shrink told him to stay in bed.
Don't even read, she said. It would just make getting back to sleep harder.
He just had to lie there.
But his pillow was too flat. The used mattress he'd bought groaned every time he turned over.
The heat made his scars itch. The new skin was tight and prickly, reminding him of every place her blade had sliced his flesh. His chest was knitted with scar tissue. Patches of dark hair sprouted around the thick pale pink gashes and pearly threads, unable to grow through the tough flesh.
That sort of itching, in the middle of the night, can make a person crazy, and sometimes, while he slept, he scratched his scars until they bled.
Archie ran a hand along his side, the scars pebbly under his fingers, and then over his chest, where his fingers found the heart-shaped scar she had carved into him with a scalpel. Then he made a fist with his hand, rolled over, and pinned it under his pillow.
* * *
Four-ten A.M.
Archie's cell phone rang. He turned over in bed and looked at the clock on his bedside table. He'd been asleep ten minutes. It seemed like longer. His eyeballs felt gritty, his tongue coated. His hair was damp with sweat. He was on his stomach, naked, half his face smashed against the pillow. As he reached out and fumbled for his phone he knocked over the bottle of Ambien, which toppled and rolled off the bedside table and clattered to a stop somewhere under the bed.
Archie brought the phone's glowing LCD screen to his face and immediately recognized the number.
He knew he should let it go to voice mail.
But he didn't.
"Hi, Patrick," Archie said into the phone.
"I can't sleep," Patrick said. His voice was a strained whisper. Probably trying not to wake up his parents. "What if he comes back to get me?" Patrick said.
"He's dead," Archie said.
Patrick was silent. Not convinced.
The official report had been death by drowning. A half-truth. Archie had held Patrick's captor's head underwater, and when he was dead, he had pushed his body into the current of the flooded river.
The corpse still hadn't surfaced.
"Believe me," Archie said. Because I killed him.
"Will you come and visit me?" Patrick asked.
"I can't right now," Archie said.
"Can I come and visit you?"
Archie rolled over on his back and rubbed his forehead with his hand. "I think your parents want to keep you close right now."
"I heard them talking about me. They want to give me medicine."
"They're trying to help you feel better."
"I have a secret," Patrick said.
"Do you want to tell me what it is?" Archie asked.
"Not yet."
Archie didn't want to force it. Not after what Patrick had been through. "Okay," he said.
"Will you count with me?" Patrick asked. It was something Archie had done with his own son. Counting breaths to get to sleep. Patrick and Ben were both nine. But Patrick's experience had left him changed. He was mature without being sophisticated.
"Sure," Archie said. He waited. He could hear Patrick getting settled and imagined him curled on his side on the couch in his family's living room, the phone held to his ear. Archie had never seen that couch, that house, but he'd seen photographs in the police file. He could picture it.
"One," Archie said. He paused and listened as Patrick drew a breath and exhaled it. "Two." Archie sat up in bed. Patrick yawned. "Three." He put his feet on the floor. "Four." Stood up. "Five." The windows in his bedroom were original, made up of dozens of factory-style rectangular panes. If Archie ran his fingers over the glass, he could feel tiny waves and ripples on the surface.
"Six," he said.
He made his way to the window. "Seven." The light was on inside, and it was still dark enough outside that Archie could see his own mirror image in the glass. As he got closer, his reflection faded and the city appeared. Out his window the Willamette cut a curved path north, slicing the city in half. A sliver of light along the silhouette of the West Hills marked the first hint of dawn. The river was almost lilac-colored.
"Eight," he said.
It was the truck's backup alarm that caught his attention. The window was open, hinged along the top so that it swung out horizontally. Archie's eyes flicked down to the street below.
"Nine."
The streetlights were still on. The produce district had wide streets, built big enough for multiple trucks full of apples and strawberries. But the trucks didn't run much anymore. The warehouses were now mostly home to used office supply stores, fringe art galleries, Asian antique stores, coffeehouses, and microbreweries. It was close in and cheap, as long as you didn't mind the trains that barreled through the neighborhood every few hours.
"Ten."
The truck down below had backed up to the loading dock of Archie's building and stopped. A black sedan pulled up beside it. Two men got out of the cab of the truck and walked around to slide the back door up. A woman got out of the black car. Archie knew she was a woman the same way he knew that the men in the truck were men. It was how they stood, how they moved, the dark shapes of their bodies in the yellow glow of the streetlights. The woman said something to the men, and then took a few steps back and watched as the men started unloading large cardboard boxes from the truck.
A U-Haul.
Someone was moving into the building. At four in the morning.
Archie had stopped counting.
"Patrick?" he said.
The other end of the line was silent.
"Good night," Archie whispered.
He ended the call. It was 4:17 A.M. The bed beckoned. He could still get a few hours' sleep before he had to head in to the office. As he stepped away from the window, he thought he saw the woman look up at him.
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