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Nicole C. Kear




Fun fact: I am running away. To live in an amusement park.

Related fact: I am not a runaway kind of person. Unless you’re talking about running away from a fight, or from awkward eye contact or something. Then, yes, totally, I’m your girl.

But if you made everyone in my sixth-grade class vote for “Least Likely to Run Away to Live in an Amusement Park,” they’d definitely pick me. If they could remember my name.

So it’s kind of unbelievable that I am here, standing directly in front of the Foreverland gates, in the middle of a Wednesday in the middle of the summer, when everyone thinks I’m at computer camp back in the city.

Life is full of surprises.

People say that like it’s a good thing, but honestly, the surprises are usually bad ones. At best, it’s 50/50. Of course, I’m a glass-half-empty kind of person—at least that’s what my mom tells me. So I might be wrong. But, just as an example, the suitcase I found this morning by the door—that was a surprise. And not the party-hat kind, that’s for sure.

This, here, my running away—I haven’t decided yet if it’s a good surprise or a bad one. Because I haven’t decided yet whether I’m really doing this. Yes, I took the Metro-North from Grand Central for an hour and a half, then the Foreverland shuttle bus to get here, but I haven’t really done anything that wrong yet. I haven’t done anything I can’t undo.

I crane my neck up to look at the FOREVERLAND sign hanging in the middle of the gate. Underneath, in smaller letters, it says: WHERE MAGIC NEVER ENDS! I look past the gate and see the sweep of coasters curving like mysterious symbols in the sky. I breathe in the tangy, plasticky smell of cotton candy from a nearby stand. If the color pink had a scent, this would be it. I hear the joyful shrieks of people riding high, cutting through clouds. It looks and smells and sounds like freedom and fun and, yes, maybe even magic. And it can all be mine … if I step inside.

Chances are, I’ll get caught right away. I mean, there are definitely people who could pull this thing off—fast-thinking, slick-talking criminal masterminds—but I am not one of those people. I panic when I order from the “12 and under” menu, even though I am twelve, because it feels like I’m just cutting it a little too close. This will never, never work.

I could just spin around, retrace my steps, take the train to the city, and be back before my parents get home.



I can think of about a hundred reasons why I shouldn’t take another step forward.

But I do.

I take another step. I walk through the gates. Right into Foreverland.


I head to the ticket booth, weaving around a swarm of little kids in mustard-yellow Camp Barrie T-shirts. The ticket line is really long. I knew the park would be busy, since it’s the middle of the day, but the park is even more packed than I’d expected. Which is great. Perfect, actually.

The bigger the crowd, the easier it is to get lost in.

And since getting lost in the crowd is one of my specialties, I’m all set.

Fun fact: I’m a wallflower.

Actually, I’m more like wall paint. I’m pretty sure flowered wallpaper gets more attention than I do.

I guess it’s because I’m quiet or maybe I have one of those faces that looks like a lot of other faces. Either way, lots of people forget they’ve met me. I know this is a thing that happens once in a while to people, but it happens all the time to me. It’s hard not to be insulted. Nobody wants to be invisible.

Except for superheroes, as my ex-best friend Priya would point out when I complained about this. Spies, too.

“You’re looking at this all wrong,” she’d say. “Think of the perks of blending in.”

This, right here, is one of those perks. When you’re running away to live in an amusement park, it comes in handy to have the kind of face people instantly forget.

I’m happy the park is crowded, but I’m not thrilled that the ticket line is so long. The longer I wait, the more nervous I get. It’s boiling hot out and I’m sweating up a storm, but I’ve got cold feet, all right—feet so cold they’re turning icy. My heart’s racing and my stomach gets that familiar churning feeling.

I do the one thing that I know will definitely calm me down.

I write an acrostic poem.

I take my brand-new notebook out of my backpack, uncap a Flair pen, and scribble:









Then I fill it in:

A kind of weird way to

Calm down, but weird is

Relative. It’s not nearly as

Odd as that

Sixteen-year-old I read about who

Turns her fingernail clippings

Into sculptures, as a way to


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