A literary memoir from a gay white South African, coming of age at the end of apartheid in the late 1970s.
Raised in the middle of a game preserve where his father worked, Glen Retief's nuclear family was a preserve of its own against chaotic forces just outside its borders: a childhood friend whose uncle led a death squad, while his cultured grandfather quoted Shakespeare at barbecues, meanwhile abusing Glen's sister in an antique-filled, tobacco-scented living room.
But it was at age twelve when Glen left his warm, loving family to go to boarding school, where they could no longer protect him from his racially divided country's storehouse of violence, that he was truly exposed to human cruelty and frailty. When the prefects were caught torturing younger boys, they invented "the jack bank," where underclassmen could save beatings, earn interest on their deposits, and draw on them later to atone for their supposed infractions. Retief writes movingly of the complicated emotions and politics in this punitive all-male world, and of how he navigated them, even as he began to realize that his sexuality was different from his peers.
"If it only dealt with his growing up against the harrowing backdrop of apartheid in a South African military boarding school trained to groom privileged white boys like him into violent oppressors—'jacks' are beatings—then this would be a riveting memoir; the fact that Retief was also coming of age as a gay man makes it essential reading."—Advocate
"A remarkable memoir with the deeply resonant literary power of the finest fiction. The Jack Bank is an important book by a supremely gifted writer."—Robert Olen Butler, author of A Good Scent from A Strange Mountain
"This moving book explores the emotions of exile as few stories about leaving home do. A passionate writer, Retief turns his tale from attachment to detachment, from letting go to letting be."—Thomas Larson, author of The Saddest Music Ever Written
"One of those books that you never forget and never stop talking about. Retief belongs in the pantheon of white African writers Alexandra Fuller, Peter Godwin, Coetzee, and Gordimer."—Bob Shacochis, National Book Award-winning author of The Immaculate Invasion
"Glen Retief's The Jack Bank is a transgressive, harrowing and illuminating work of literary art. In a language marked by a brutal childhood in the last years of the apartheid regime, and with uncommon wisdom, Retief's epiphanic narrative draws us into regions of cultural importance beyond the scope of traditional memoir. Thus, he changes what we imagine this genre to be, allowing it to become something truer."—Carolyn Forché, author of The Country Between Us
"This is one of the best memoirs I've read in years, difficult to put down, riveting . . . Unforgettable, lyrical and beautifully written . . . I'll be shocked if The Jack Bank is not hailed as one of the best books of the year."—Steve Yarbrough, author of Safe from the Neighbors
"Visceral and emotionally complex—an impressive first book."—Kirkus Reviews
"Eloquent . . . readers everywhere will be caught by the searing detail about family, friendship, sex and love."—Booklist
"Retief has a subtle, skillful style."—Library Journal
"Probing deeply into his personal memories of race, sexuality, and violence, creative writing instructor Retief has written a potent, evocative chronicle of his youth."—Publishers Weekly
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