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If You Love Me

A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Addiction and Recovery

Maureen Cavanagh

Henry Holt and Co.

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ISBN10: 1250234549
ISBN13: 9781250234544

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Fast-paced and heartwarming, devastating and redemptive, Maureen’s incredible odyssey into the opioid crisis—first as a parent, then as an advocate—is ultimately a deeply moving mother-daughter story about love, strength, and hope. When Maureen and her ex-husband Mike see their daughter Katie’s needle track marks for the first time, it is a complete shock. But, slowly, the drug use explains everything—Katie’s constant exhaustion, erratic moods, and all those spoons that have gone missing from the house.

Like millions of parents and relatives all over the country—many of whom she has helped through her nonprofit organization—Maureen learns that recovery is neither straightforward nor brief. Over a roller-coaster two years, Maureen battles to save Katie’s life, and in telling this unforgettable story, she brings the opioid crisis out of the shadows and into the house next door.

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“Realizing that . . . the disease of addiction is more powerful than even the very strongest parent-child bond is the essence of Cavanagh’s maternal ‘journey,’ which will offer readers facing similar struggles some useful information and, above all, the comfort of knowing that they are not alone.”—The New York Times Book Review

"An urgent dispatch from the front lines of the heroin epidemic by a mother who witnesses the dissolution of her honor-roll daughter; Maureen Cavanagh's riveting voice pulls you through this modern plague with honesty, humanity and, surprisingly, with humor."—Katharine Q. Seelye, The New York Times

“Kindred spirits . . . will fully appreciate Cavanagh’s stellar job in reassuring parents . . . offering subtle, in-story advice and rueful observations that make this book valuable for a parent, grandparent, friend and politician. This book deserves its spot on a growing list of books on addiction."—The Guam Daily Post

“Cavanagh has written a modern classic of healing and self-discovery. A striking memoir whose power lies in its compelling and page-turning empathy for its subjects."—Beth Macy, New York Times bestselling author of Factory Man and Dopesick

“A memoir that reads like fiction—but all the more striking because Cavanagh, neither too privileged nor too disadvantaged—could be any one of us."—Sam Quinones, author of Dreamland: The True Tale of America’s Opiate Epidemic

"Maureen Cavanagh understands, at the deepest level, the terror and the helplessness that families feel as they watch their child spiral into the void. The story that she shares in If You Love Me is the story of thousands, and it is told with honesty, compassion, and fierce hope. Maureen's commitment to overcoming stigma and isolation in this book will help families for years to come."—Ruth A. Potee, MD, addictionologist

“A frank and vivid portrayal of a mother’s journey through the potentially grave and enduring unpredictability of a loved one’s opioid addiction. An invaluable resource for suffering families as well for those wishing to understand the phenomenology of the disease of addiction and, indeed, the hope of recovery and new beginnings."—John F. Kelly, Ph.D. ABPP, Elizabeth R. Spallin Associate Professor of Psychiatry, Harvard Medical School; Director, Recovery Research Institute, Massachusetts General Hospital

“An emotionally fraught tale of a mother's love and her actions to save her daughter from opioid addiction."—Kirkus Reviews

"Cavanagh's writing is honest and straightforward, her pace fast and tone foreboding; all this makes for a page-turner that puts readers beside her on the emotional roller coaster that dealing with a loved one's substance abuse is."—Booklist

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Winter 2015


I am waiting. Snow falls. Over five feet in February, with a record-setting ninety inches between January 24 and February 15. Lucky for me that during several of those days I was happily soaking up some vitamin...

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About the author

Maureen Cavanagh

Maureen Cavanagh is the founder of Magnolia New Beginnings, a nonprofit peer-support group for those living with or affected by substance use disorder. She has been recognized by The New York Times, CNN, and other outlets for her work fighting the opioid crisis and the stigma that surrounds it.

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