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CHICAGO
SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 25, 1871
A long, delicate twist of ash still lingers in the sky above the Irish quarter of Chicago. It is two blocks over from where I stand on the porch of the boardinghouse where my younger brother, Quinn, and I have been living for the past seven weeks. The sky here is steel gray, but clear. A cold November wind glides and flutters above the rooftops. The same wind that drove Chicago’s Great Fire last month has since been slowly, gently scrubbing it out of the sky.
I look at the ash cloud and wonder if the darkest, middle spot is lingering over the O’Learys’ barn. Everyone is blaming Mrs. O’Leary and one of her cows for starting the fire that destroyed most of Chicago.
“You’ve done your best to help them,” Quinn says, coming up to my side. He knows my thoughts by the direction of my gaze.
“A pound of bacon isn’t much.”
“Plus the flour and eggs from before…”
“I feel so bad for them,” I say. “Nobody really knows how that fire started.”
“Ailis,” Quinn asks, “why do you risk taking things from Miss Franny’s kitchen?”
Miss Franny runs this boardinghouse. Father would have called her a skinflint or pinchpenny—which just means greedy. I’d add spiteful, prejudiced, and mean to the list.
“Mrs. O’Leary has lost her milking business and hardly comes outside anymore,” I say to Quinn. “Giving her and her family food is a small thing, but maybe it lets them know someone cares.”
“You know stealing food from the kitchen only makes Miss Franny angry at them—and at you.”
“Miss Franny is eternally angry at me, and at you, and at the O’Learys, because we’re Irish. It doesn’t matter what we do.”
“She’ll make you go without dinner tonight and you’ll probably get a whipping.”
I look over to my brother, whose dark eyes are heavy with worry. The way they crowd his nose reminds me of Father. “Quinn the protector,” I say, tousling his hair. “Don’t worry so much about me.”
He dips his gaze down and says, “You’re all I have.” The truth of his words makes the air between us uncomfortable.
“It’s precisely for that reason you must trust me,” I say. “You’re only eleven.”
“And you’re only twelve,” he says. Then he reaches into his back pocket and pulls out a newspaper. “Look what I have. Today’s Chicago Tribune.”
“Where’d you get it?” I ask, grabbing the paper and sitting down on the front step. It’s chilly outside, but we are away from Miss Franny’s watchful gaze.
“I found it in the kitchen.”
I start to flip through the pages of the Tribune. The whole neighborhood has been buzzing about Mr. and Mrs. O’Leary being called before the city’s investigative council and I want to read about it. But first I want to see if there is any mention of the fire that happened in our hometown of Peshtigo, Wisconsin.
“Ailis—” Quinn begins.
“Don’t start up again,” I say, looking at Quinn.
“But Miss Franny has let us stay out of kindness when we have nowhere else to go. Maybe you can at least try to annoy her less.”
“Not out of kindness,” I correct. “Out of obligation to Mr. Olsen. Don’t forget that he’s the one who owns this boardinghouse. Miss Franny is just an employee.”
Mr. Olsen is a real estate investor and former president of the great Union Pacific Railroad Company. He has been trying to build a railroad line from Chicago up to Peshtigo. Father was an important liaison between the Peshtigo farmers and the railroad executives. I know Mr. Olsen wanted to buy our land for the railroad, but Father wouldn’t sell it. Still, Father arranged meetings and encouraged others to at least listen to the railroad company’s plan. I guess Mr. Olsen sees helping Quinn and me as a way to pay back some of Father’s kindness. I tell myself he has no idea of the type of person Miss Franny truly is and that he would not have placed us in her care otherwise.
Quinn settles down on the step next to me and leans in to my side, trying to get a glimpse of the newspaper. He can’t read nearly as well as I can because Father needed him in the cranberry bogs most of the year. Farming and schooling are often at odds. “Is it there?” he asks.
I look through all the pages. “Nothing.”
Quinn shakes his head. “How can that be? I overheard Sam say the count of dead bodies is over two thousand for Peshtigo’s fire—that is nearly ten times as deadly as Chicago’s fire. And it happened on the same day! How can there not even be a mention of it in the paper?”
Sam is one of Miss Franny’s boarders and the only one I pay any attention to, mostly because he is the only one who bothers to speak to Quinn and me. That, and the fact he doesn’t switch out like the others. He has been at Miss Franny’s since before we came. It was Quinn who first noticed that Miss Franny cuts a thicker slice of roast for Sam and fills his coffee cup before it is even empty.
“Peshtigo is not Chicago. A poor lumber-and-farming town doesn’t have the world looking at it. It’s the big city that gets the press. Besides, you shouldn’t be earwigging on Sam’s conversations.”
“And you shouldn’t be stealing Miss Franny’s bacon.”
“One-tenth of which was mine already.”
Just as the ring of my words leaves the air, Miss Franny steps out onto the porch.
Willow switch in hand, she narrows her eyes at the sight of me.
* * *
I am curled up in the bed I share with Nettie when she slides in beside me. My face is to the wall and her cold feet bump against my legs, sending a shiver through my body. The bed is in the storage closet off the back of the house because Nettie always has a runny nose. Other tenants complained so Miss Franny keeps her separated on account of their fear of getting sick. At least there is a small window.
Nettie is only six years old and had lived her whole life in one of Chicago’s orphanages until it burned down. City leaders asked anyone who had space to take in those displaced by the fire and promised a small monthly payment for doing so. The children in the orphanage were handed off to various locations, and that’s how Nettie came to Miss Franny’s.
When Mr. Olsen delivered Quinn and me to the boarding-house after the weeklong trip from Peshtigo, Miss Franny asked the guests who would be willing to share their space. I’ll never forget standing there at Mr. Olsen’s side when Nettie’s sweet hand went into the air, offering her bed.
Quinn ended up on the front room floor.
“Are you awake, Ailis?” Nettie whispers in the dark.
“Yes.”
“I’m sorry about Miss Franny. I don’t think she wants to be mean. Not really.”
Precious Nettie, who shares her tiny bed and forgives people like Miss Franny.
“She’s just so…”—her words trail off—“tired.”
I want to remind Nettie that Miss Franny seemed plenty awake when she was bellowing at Quinn about the woodpile or giving me three lashes with a willow switch for swiping the bacon, but it seems pointless.
“I brought you something.”
I turn from the wall. “Oh, Nettie, you should never take anything from the kitchen.”
She giggles. “It’s not food. It’s the newspaper. Quinn said you’d want it back.”
“How did you get it away from Miss Franny?”
“I hid it in the waistband of my bloomers when she wasn’t looking. Do you still want to read it after it was in my bloomers?”
“Shhh,” I say, reminding us both to lower our voices. “Of course I do.” Suddenly the night doesn’t seem so miserable.
She hands me the paper and I put it under my pillow. “Better not light the lamp when Miss Franny is in such a bad mood,” I say. “We’ll read it in the morning, together.”
“But I’m not tired,” Nettie says.
“Close your eyes, sleep will come.”
“No it won’t. Ailis, tell me a story.”
I punch at my pillow. “What kind of story?”
“A story about home.”
Nettie always wants to hear about families and homes because it’s something she’s never had.
“How about a mermaid story instead? Or a story about a magical nymph from Ireland?”
“No,” she says. “Just a story about how your mother would do things.”
I don’t want to think about how Mother did things.
Still, it’s Nettie.
“Okay,” I say. “Mother had long hair the color of clouds at sunset.”
“Reddish orange, just like yours.”
I remember Mother’s long braids twisted up on her head. They were so beautiful. “Everyone loved her hair, especially Father.”
“Father was a cranberry farmer,” Nettie says. She talks about them as if they were her own.
“Yes. He worked long days and was tired at night, but always managed to play the fiddle before bedtime.”
“He was a wonderful musician. His fiddle is right there in the corner.” She motions in the darkness toward the foot of the bed where Quinn and I keep our things, including the badly charred case that holds Father’s fiddle. How it survived the fire, I’ll never know.
“That’s right,” I say. “And he was good with stories, too. He liked to tell this one about mischievous fairies who hide behind a looking glass and…”
“No,” Nettie says softly. “No fairy stories tonight. Just family stories.”
“All right.” I take a breath and settle my memory into the farmhouse back in Peshtigo. I am grateful for the cover of darkness in Nettie’s closet because I can allow the tears to come as I remember Father holding his fiddle in his calloused hands, bending and swaying as he played “Johnny, I Hardly Knew Ye.” “Mother would pull Gertrude up on her lap by the fireplace…”
“Gertrude was three, right, Ailis?”
“Yes,” I say, remembering Gertrude’s chubby pink cheeks. “She was only three.”
“I would have loved Gertrude, wouldn’t I have, Ailis?”
“And she would have loved you right back.”
“What kind of games did Gertrude like to play?”
I can’t help but smile. “Hide-and-seek was her favorite. She’d hide in the wool basket almost every time.”
“But you and Quinn would pretend you didn’t know where she was, right?”
“Yes.”
“You’d say, Oh my, where could Gertrude be hiding?”
I turn to the side and wipe my wet cheek along the pillow edge.
“Where would I have hidden, Ailis?” Nettie asks.
“I don’t know. Maybe in the wool basket as well,” I suggest.
“No,” she says. “I would never take Gertrude’s spot. I think I’d hide under the table. Did Mother keep a cloth over the table? If she did, I could hide there.”
“For you, I’m sure she would have.”
“She was such a good mother, wasn’t she, Ailis?”
I try to say yes, but all that comes out is a squeak. Nettie takes my hand under the quilt.
“Thanks for that story,” she says. “I know it makes you sad, but you had something real special. Maybe just for twelve years, but at least you had it.”
And all I can think as I listen to Nettie’s breath slow as she falls asleep is, Twelve years is not enough.
Text copyright © 2016 by Tess Hilmo