Macmillan Childrens Publishing Group


A Memoir of Faith

Joe Eszterhas

St. Martin's Press




Joe Eszterhas grew up in refugee camps and then in America's back alleys. He worked as a police reporter, racing the cops to robberies and shootings. He interviewed and wrote about mass murders and serial killers. He wrote dark, sexually graphic, and violent films like Basic Instinct, Jagged Edge, and Jade.
Eszterhas knew a lot about darkness. Then, on a hellishly hot day in 2001, desperately battling to survive throat cancer and his addictions to alcohol and cigarettes, Joe Eszterhas found God. Or God found him.
And he came from darkness into light.
Crossbearer is the powerful, poignant, and sometimes wryly humorous account of a streetwise and cynical man's newfound faith, and of how he discovers God in the most intimate and routine moments of life: a family game of baseball, a child's photograph of a cloud, a dying mother's dying roses.
It is also the inspiring story of a man who must overcome his addictions to stay alive—and can't by himself. He realizes that he needs the love of his wife, his children, and especially his new friend, God, to do it.
Eszterhas is a master memoirist—his Hollywood Animal was called "powerful and affecting" (The New York Times), "absolutely first-rate" (Los Angeles Times Book Review) and "heartbreaking, funny and outrageous" (Houston Chronicle)—and with Crossbearer he reveals a fresh and completely unexpected new chapter of his life.
With surprising tenderness and a willingness to bare even weaknesses and mistakes, Joe Eszterhas has written a startling personal story about faith, values, family and love.


"I didn't even really know how to pray…Part of it was that I felt myself to be presuming God's favor in our new relationship. I thought to myself: Yeah, right, I reject Him so long ago, and then, after forty years of not just ignoring Him...


Praise for Crossbearer

“Followers of provocative screenwriter (Basic Instinct, Flashdance, Showgirls) and author (Hollywood Animal, American Rhapsody) Eszterhas may do a double-take when they see his entertaining new memoir branded with a cross, and a triple-take when they see he means it... Eszterhas's journey is inspiring and his tough-guy sense of humor remains intact.” —Publishers Weekly

“Eszterhas writes with his won't be bored. And you may even be moved.” —New York Times Book Review

“Tells the story of his spiritual conversion and his newfound devotion to God and family,,,His new book is evidence of Mr. Eszterhas' victory.” —Toledo Blade

“It is fascinating to hear him wrestle with his decision to remain in the Catholic church...while the memoir is raw at times, it is never short of interesting anecdotes...he is a fantastic writer.” —

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About the author

Joe Eszterhas

Joe Eszterhas has written the screenplays for sixteen films that have made more than a billion dollars at the box office. Among them are Basic Instinct, Jagged Edge, Flashdance and Showgirls. A former senior editor at Rolling Stone, he is the author of five previous books—the second, Charlie Simpson's Apocalypse, was nominated for the National Book Award. The father of seven children, he lives with his wife, Naomi, and their four sons in Bainbridge Township, Ohio.

Joe Eszterhas

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